A retired career anorexic examines herself & her & our culture in a masterpiece of confessional literature. At the age of four Marya Hornbacher looked in a mirror & decided she was fat. At nine she was bulimic. At twelve she was anorexic. By the time she was eighteen shed been hospitalized five times once in the loony bin. Her doctors & her parents had given up on her; they were watching her die. But Marya decided to live. Four years on now 22 here is her harrowing tale powerfully told in a virtuoso mix of memoir cultural criticism & psychological examination. Here is the amazingly articulate fury of a clever woman made stupid by her culture who threw away her teenage years in a continuous cycle of bingeing & vomiting or just plain starvation. The first book to explore from the inside the intimate relationship between eating disorders & 1990s cultures historically unprecedented obsession with body diet & gender; not a testimony to a miracle cure but the story of one womans travels to the darker side of reality & her decision to find her way back on her own terms. Hornbacher is articulate clever & has all the persuasive zeal of a convert furious at the pressures that made her what she was. Paradoxically her painful journey is also gripping and!dare one say it!.entertaining in a way that no fiction could ever be. A compulsive read. Publishing News; A gritty unflinching look at eating disorders written from the raw disintegrated centre of young pain with stark candour & power. New York Times / The slimming industry is worth GBP1billion in GB alone / The UK has 3.5 million anorexics & bulimics