Sometimes when he didn't know he was being watched Meggie would look at him & try desperately to imprint his face upon her brain's core.. . And he would turn to find her watching him a look in his eyes of haunted grief a doomed look. She understood the implicit message or thought she did; he must go back to the Church & his duties. Never again with the same spirit perhaps but more able to serve. For only those who have slipped & fallen know the vicissitudes of the way.. .