Born & raised in Judsonia Arkansas-a place where indoor plumbing was a luxury squirrel was a meal & sex ed was taught during senior year in high school (long after many girls had gotten pregnant & dropped out) Beth Ditto stood out. Beth was a fat pro-choice sexually confused choir nerd with a great voice an eighties perm & a Kool Aid dye job. Her single mother worked overtime which meant Beth & her five siblings were often left to fend for themselves. Beth spent much of her childhood as a transient shuttling between relatives caring for a sickly volatile aunt she nonetheless loved looking after sister brothers & cousins & trying to steer clear of her mothers bad boyfriends. Her punk education began in high school under the tutelage of a group of teens
- her second family
- who embraced their outsider status & introduced her to safety-pinned clothing mail-order tapes queer & fat-positive zines & any shred of counterculture they could smuggle into Arkansas. With their help Beth survived high school a tragic family scandal & a mental breakdown & then she got the hell out of Judsonia. She decamped to Olympia Washington a late-1990s paradise for Riot Grrrls & punks & began to cultivate her glamorous queer fat femme image. On a whim
- with longtime friends Nathan a guitarist & musical savant in a polyester suit & Kathy a quiet intellectual turned drummer
- she formed the band Gossip. She gave up trying to remake her singing voice into the ethereal wisp she thought it should be & instead embraced its full soulful potential. Gossip gave her that chance & the raw power of her voice won her & Gossip the attention they deserved. Marked with the frankness humour & defiance that have made her an international icon Beth Dittos unapologetic startlingly direct & poetic memoir is a hypnotic & inspiring account of a woman coming into her own.