On paper things looked good for Mark Rice-Oxley: wife children fulfilling job. But then at his 40th birthday party his whole world crumbled as he succumbed to depression... How many men do you know who have been through periods when their lives havent seemed right? How badly askew were things for them? Many men suffer from depression yet it is still a subject that is taboo. Men often dont visit the doctor or they dont want to face up to feelings of weakness & vulnerability. By telling his story Mark Rice-Oxley hopes it will enable others to tell theirs. In this intensely moving memoir he retraces the months of his utmost despair revisiting a landscape from which at times he felt he would never escape. Written with lyricism & poignancy Mark captures the visceral nature of this most debilitating of illnesses with a frightening clarity while at the same time offering a sympathetic & dispassionate view of what is happening & perhaps why. This is not a self-help book but a memoir that is brimful of experience understanding & hope for all those who read it. It is above all honest touching & surprisingly optimistic.