By his 18th birthday David Millar was living & racing in France sleeping in rented rooms tipped to be the next English-speaking Tour winner. A year later he'd realised the dream & signed a professional contract with the Cofidis team who had one Lance Armstrong on their books. He perhaps lived the high life a little too enthusiastically -- high on a roof after too much drink he broke his heel in a fall & before long the pressure to succeed had tipped over into doping. Here in a full & frank autobiography David Millar recounts the story from the inside: he doped because 'cycling's drug culture was like white noise' & because of peer pressure. 'I doped for money & glory in order to guarantee the continuation of my status.' Five years on from his arrest Millar is clean & reflective & holds nothing back in this account of his dark years.