This is a vivid memoir of one young womans psychiatric treatment in the Sixties which raises questions that are still relevant today. Teenage life in the swinging sixties hanging out in coffee bars talking fashion & pop music who could wish for more? But in August 1968 growing pains started to kick hard for 18-year-old factory worker Jean Davison & adolescent idealism quickly turns to angst & emptiness. With her home life in chaos Jean turns to a psychiatrist hoping for a sensible adult to talk to. Thats where her problems really begin: a weeks voluntary psychiatric rest is the start of one long nightmare of drugs electric shock treatment & abuse which turn her into a zombie. Losing five years of her young life to the mental health system Jean finally finds the courage to say no to drugs & turns her life around finds love & returns to the mental health service as a worker. Balancing"es from case number 10826 her actual case notes which reveal a diagnosis of chronic schizophrenia with her own account of interviews with doctors this memoir raises disturbing questions on the treatment of psychiatric patients which are still relevant today.