‘ There is so much aching love in this book such pain & beauty Behold & rejoice’ – Tim Winton author of Cloudstreet Was he thinking do I have to be this kind of boy to survive? Is this what being a boy is? As a boy growing up on the south coast of England Howard Cunnell’s sense of self was dominated by his father’s absence Now years later he is a father & his daughter is becoming his son Starting with his own childhood in the Sussex beachlands Howard tells the story of the years of self-destruction that defined his young adulthood & the escape he found in reading & the natural world Still he felt compelled to destroy the relationships that mattered to him Saved by love & responsibility Cunnell charts his journey from anger to compassion as his daughter Jay realizes he is a boy & a son Most of all this is a story about love – its necessity & fragility & its unequalled capacity to enable us to be who we are Deeply thoughtful searingly honest & exquisitely lyrical Fathers & Sons is an exploration of fatherhood masculinity authenticity & family